Lately I have focused only on what bothers me; I even developed a cult out of it. I would wake up in the morning reciting in my head what’s wrong in my life, especially what I would change about my fiancé’s behavior. It has become exhausting both mentally and physically, and our relationship suffered a great deal.
After re-reading ‘You Can Heal Your Life’ by Louise L. Hay, I first tried with positive affirmations. For my personality type it is very important not to criticize myself when I make mistakes. So I’ve been repeating and trying to adopt the affirmation to forgive myself, love myself for who I am and that I’m ready for a change.
Since I’m a visual learner (when I close my eyes, I can remember the page in the book where the specific content is…) I decided to make a list of positive and negative aspects of my man. I wanted to see things in writing and what would prevail. I was amazed when I saw that the left column (positive things) was filled by the very end of the paper, and for the right column (negative ones) I was able to think only of three things! And I’ve made the biggest problem in life out of those three things. The list was an eye-opener.
Finally, I reminded myself that I have neglected my creative side for quite some time. I love making polymer clay jewelry and beading, but I couldn’t make myself start creating. I realized that it’s true when they say that you should not wait until inspiration comes to you, but should continue to work and everything will just come to you. I remembered seeing the cutest rubber band bracelets all over the Internet, so I got myself several packs. FYI, inexpensive fun. Yesterday I spent few hours on playing with rubber bands and made a dozen sweetest summer arm candies (or anklet candies, if you wish). Since I felt all blissful and tranquil, I decided to name them Love Bracelets and give everyone I love several of them. My fiancé got it first, a gorgeous black-and-red one 🙂 He was happy that I’m back to things which fulfill me.
As for myself, I am splashed with a new wave of energy to create something, and I’ve started focusing on my to-do list that I’ve been neglecting lately. And on top of that, I indulge in birthday cakes I got from my dear mother and my fiancé 🙂
The change of focus really has the capacity to change feelings and the way we experience life. Try to remember the things you love doing and plunge into some creative stuff!
I am interested in how do you deal with obsessive thoughts? How do you express creativity? What are the strategies you use to feel good instantly, and what do you practice to improve the quality life in the long run? I’m joyfully waiting for your answers 🙂